Protected: Forever Unappreciated
No Remarks |I’m Tired
No Remarks |I’m so tired of Jeremy accusing me all the time.
He abandoned us in April and now accuses me of cheating all the time when I’m not doing anything. It’s not my fault he decided to stay in Ohio. He knew I was moving and never tried to save, just like he couldn’t give me the $87 to go to Jamaica. That proved to me how much he really isn’t interested in me. Every time he does this I usually find out later that he’s the one doing stuff.
I told him it was over today because I’m tired of it now. Now that I am in Florida I don’t have to subjected to his abuse. I moved here for a new start and I’m not going to allow him to keep me down.
I’m tired of him everyday with the same BS. I don’t like anyone here, but maybe after being here for a while I’ll met someone that’s decent and then I can begin a new relationship without all the drama and problems.
Right now I’m just focused on getting everything set up for my sons so they can have the things that they need.
I really miss my boys…
Well I’m going to go cry now.
A Bit of Advice
No Remarks |I don’t have much to say today, but this bit of advice to those who care…
If you are with someone and they bring out the “worse in you”, then they are not the one for you. When it’s true love that person will always bring out the “best in you.”
That’s all I have to say today. True love reveals itself, just like false love does…
Getting Prepared
No Remarks |Today I’ve decided to work on my resume so I can have it when I go to Florida next month. That way I can have a head start on finding a job. I have to write myself a really good cover letter too, which I can get help doing at work.
Last week I asked one of my instructors if they could help me come up with ways to earn or raise about $2000-$2500 to help me with moving since I will only have about $3000 saved by October which is not enough to me and Jeremy is defiantly not moving with me so I’m on my own. $3000 will only cover the Uhaul, gas, and possibly the apartment’s security deposit, first, and last month rent. I will still need extra money for food, supplies, and the first couple months of rent until I get well established with some sort of job. So hopefully some of her suggestions will work.
At work I worked on my typing and I’ve learned a lot of new keys. The symbol keys…
I hated every second of it. I know I will never type a document that says:
@# $4$ % + 5 =_==-+-_== (h+-p) & *^ 2@2 [f}] {d} [[d]
That Mavis Beacon had me typing long streams of this garbage and expected me to finish typing the 5 lines of constant symbols and numbers the correct way within one minute. That sucked, but I know after I’m finished working on all the symbol keys I can then start working on my typing speed and accuracy. My goal for the next 2 weeks is an average of 30 wpm. So I have to be on the ball and focused to acheive that goal.
In other news I called Jeremy to call it quits and of coarse he blamed me for why it’s over like he played no part in it on messages on my voice mail. Oh well…it’s over and since it’s over I will no longer be blamed for everything that happens, I won’t be verbally abused any longer, emotionally abused, lied to, etc. So that’s a good thing…today is the official last day of Samara being blamed by Jeremy.
Thinking About Dating Again
No Remarks |Today was a pretty nice day weather wise. I’m totally not looking forward to the cold 50 degree weather for the next couple days. That really sucks big time. When you think it’s over here it comes again.
The midwife at my prenatal appointment said I need to work on my diet because I only gained half a pound. What am I suppose to do? I tried following all the suggestions given in the pregnancy magazine on how to eat and I’ve even used their suggested grocery list. I’m defiantly not going to get food stamps or WIC. It’s too much of a hassle and I doubt that they would give me any food stamps anyway based on my income. I rather do without it.
WIC, on the other hand, limits your choices to nasty cereals, too much peanut butter, and cow milk products (which I don’t consume). I drink soy milk and I don’t eat peanut butter like that. Neither does my sons. It would be nice if WIC gave you bread instead of gross cereal, fresh fruit year around instead of fattening juices and your choice of milk. Some people don’t eat milk based products. I certainly don’t and never will.
When I move I might start dating again because I’m tired of the some timely attitude of you know who. I need some one consistent and respectful. Some guy tried to talk to me today, but before he could get started I cut him off with the bitchy phrase, “I’m not interested.” I didn’t care how he took it. I’m tired of these sorry ass guys. The next time around I will be extremely selective. I rather be single and happy than with someone and miserable. Honestly, a guy would have to be a lot more creative than using the tired pickup lines, “How you doing?”, “Where you headed”, etc. I’ve heard all the lines before and to me it makes it like you’re like every other guy.
Well I have to prepare for work tomorrow and get ready for bed. Work seems like that’s the only place I have peace since my cell phone is off. I don’t have to be bothered by anyone’s crap at work, but my own.